I once came across a quote by Jim Rohn that said, “We generally change ourselves for one of two reasons: inspiration or desperation.” At the time, my life was going smoothly; sure, I would’ve liked to change some things, but I didn’t possess much motivation to implement those desired changes into my life. I was content with my position, and I was looking optimistically towards the future, saying, “I’ll do that someday.” But despite my attempts to coast in the fast lane, the universe was preparing to give me a big reality check. In 2020, my senior year of college, I experienced an existential crisis that changed my whole view of the world and my place in it. The crisis was sudden and challenging to navigate for some time- I was ungrounded, confused, and seeking answers.
We generally change ourselves for one of two reasons: inspiration or desperation.– Jim Rohn
I began suffering from a condition called depersonalization, causing me to be overstimulated, burned-out, and isolated- I didn’t want to participate in activities with friends, and everything made me anxious. As an extrovert my whole life, it scared me to death that suddenly, I had no desire to be with friends or go out and participate in the typical college indulgences. Instead, my higher self was calling me to find solitude and go within to heal and explore my inner state. Luckily with online school at the time, I could spend some time at home and our lake house on Possum Kingdom Lake. At this time, I dove into deep research to figure out what was “wrong” with me and how I could fix it.
But along with my experience of depersonalization, there was something deeper going on. After lots of searching, I was comforted to find my symptoms matched with all the signs of a “Spiritual Awakening.” But quickly after this discovery, I felt overwhelmed; there was so much to learn about. Why haven’t I been taught any of this? How do I decipher between the good and bad information out there? With so much to learn, what area of study to I dive into first? What will people think of me when I start talking about pursuing these subjects? Have I gone mad? All these thoughts cycled through my mind, and I was indeed at a point of despair. But from that rock-bottom point, I had a call to adventure that motivated me to begin my journey. What was my quest? Well, I didn’t know; I just knew it had to be better than dwelling in my current suffering.
Upon starting my journey, I was quickly drawn to zen philosophy and the practice of yoga and meditation. It brought me back to the self, grounded me into my physical body, and revealed the monkey-brain state of my external mind.
Information and creative ideas began flowing through me. I began journaling to capture my thoughts, reflect and calm my mind. My intellect began to thirst for knowledge, so I started reading books and consuming online resources on subjects interested me. I came across cold therapy and breathwork from Wim Hof, “The Ice Man,” as a way to battle fatigue and anxiety. I picked up fasting to improve my physiological, neurological, and spiritual health from the father of bio-hacking, Dave Asprey. I learned to ‘Think Like a Monk’ from Jay Shetty. I got back in the gym and started running to help with my mental and physical health.
And lastly, I read a book called ‘Limitless’ by Jim Kwik, which had the most profound impact on me. I realized that we are all geniuses in our own right. I learned we had been pumped full of bulls*** societal norms and myths since birth that keep us from accessing higher states of cognitive performance. I learned about neuroplasticity- our brain’s innate ability to grow and rewire actively. It changed my whole perspective on what we are capable of as human beings- I realized we are limitless. Still, we are engrained with limiting beliefs that block us from actualizing our full potential.
It’s 2022 as I write my story out for the ‘Live Thrivingly’ website, and I am thrilled to say I have experienced some incredible transformations since 2020, from college frat guy to Zen yogi. What I’ve learned so far along the way has been fascinating, and experiencing the changes in my mind, body, and soul has been exhilarating. Did I ever think this would happen to me? Or that I would go down this path? Never. But I realized it was essential for the evolution of my soul.
During my journey, I came across the following quote that resonated with me profoundly and seemed to bring a sense of calm to my being. It states, “the universe isolates you so you can find your soul’s purpose. It may seem like you’ve lost friendships and relationships but finding your path, passion, and purpose in life is worth more! For where your soul is, there you will find your treasure.” Is this website my treasure? Sadly no. But I firmly believe it is a successive step towards discovering and actualizing my innate gifts.
The universe isolates you so you can find your soul’s purpose. It may seem like you’ve lost friendships and relationships but finding your path, passion, and purpose in life is worth more! For where your soul is, there you will find your treasure.
Now I am nowhere near finished with my lifelong quest, nor do I believe I have it all figured out. I feel guided to share some of my discoveries with the world to potentially improve our lives and care for this beautiful planet we call home. I hope you find that my content provides value to you somehow, but above all, I want you to pursue what resonates with you. From re-discovered knowledge to emerging sciences, I request that you proceed with an open mind and don’t knock it until you try it. In the wise words of Bruce Lee, “Absorb what is useful. Discard what is not. Add what is uniquely yours.”